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Learning to stay still. Long autumn colours and the coming cold making me so tired, I could sleep here forever. Here is warm and filled with orange light, I wonder why I feel I have to leave just so I can come home again.

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Mumma why can I see and hear you everywhere.

I have been trying very hard to be ok and not to miss you too much.

But I can hear you, talking to me, when I sleep. I can see your face, when I fall into sleep.

I am so tired I can only lie down. Right now, I can only lie down.

such a strange night

Last night was surreal. Strange conversations and revelations, realising in all the haze of fucked up nights out and the things that have happened, people are real and feel things u can’t always predict. Walking home felt like walking back down into my body after being away for a long time, walking back to what i wanted and hoping i didn’t hurt too many people on the way home. Drank powerade and took selfies in bed. Tried to forget certain things I didn’t want to hear or be told about zzz

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