That Nowhere Feeling

Take me to the place beyond the
bottom of the world.

They let you drown
in here

“The head of each was completely encased in cotton, a swollen cocoon twice the size of an ordinary blown up balloon, and the cotton, because it had been sprayed with a glossy substance, twinkled like Christmas-tree snow”

Capote

You’re like
that heat before the rain
comes, sticky hot

with no escaping.
It just clings
all over your body.

And then the rain comes
hurtling out of nowhere.

Coffee-coloured skin
and warm honey

I’m more afraid of you than you are
of me.

Telling me to smile.

I’m smiling on the inside