weird body feels recently ~ reminding me of high school when i was an unhealthy brat but this time idk? i’ve been lethargic for months but no cause i can think of hmm. Also creeping realisation i probably need to see my psych again but i’m too scared to ask doc for another medicare plan and i can’t pay in full. Gonna push on.
Read about trauma and how a lack of love afterwards leaves the deepest scar ~ resounded with me. Slowly admitting that my heart still hurts. Told my closest friends about it for 1st time and it went ok but i still feel empty sometimes
i had a thought that i don’t feel old anymore, for a while i was sad because i could see my baby years fading away… into my real 20s now. Also back to feeling like a baby.